In The Storm....

Weight: 200.0

Yesterday, I started off doing some conditioning work, a few grip and leg endurance workouts from Martin Rooney, and feels like I injured my left foot again...You know, the one minus a good ligament across the top of my foot? Well it hurts like I dunno what, even sitting here typing...That said, I am driving to teach class, and something loud and metallic hits the underside of the truck OR breaks under there and I notice the truck pulling and making noise...I make it to the gym, and as I am pulling in, it is hard to even turn the wheel to park....I get out to smoke and notice the wheel on the passenger side is tilted in like it is broken and the brakes there are on fire! Literally in flames!...that put a damper on my mood and I had to struggle not to be harsh to the students (I already make this a pretty hard class as it is.) ...Was a good lesson in focus...I got through the first part of class and luckily Kelly walked in and he helped me by showing the pass I was to teach today...One good thing is that something one of the students asked for extra help on, helped to clear my mind for a few and while showing him side mount escape techniques, a tiny detail kind of clicked in my head, and I have made a little bit of progress there as it can be used for a better transition and makes things a lot easier...It was good to have Ron asking questions showing the new guys that the upper belts(he is a purple) still must learn...That said, had a few other issues as my neck pain reminded me I still need to have the procedure this week, and a few regular ole money issues...all told, it put together the makings of a lot of stress and me not being able to roll and work on the things I am already too short of time to get done...:( All that said, now because of deductible which needs to be paid as well as the $ for a rental car for however long, combined with the fact that none of the sponsors I thought would come through, managed to actually do so, registration money, money for babysitting my daughter while gone, spending money, and money for a private lesson I was to take before I leave is all gone...Read about a guy receiving $2500/mo on top of all expenses paid to travel/register for tournaments...A brown belt like myself...and I can't come across a sponsor for a couple hundred...Kinda depressing...Stressful...To alleviate that, I have decided to severely scale back the tournaments I will go to this year to the one or two I can afford to save up for totally on my own as it is just too frustrating to be chasing sponsors that really aren't there it seems...
Speaking of sponsors, I have a great one in GOMGI...They believed in me when no one else did, and have kept me able to compete in top flight GIs and no-gi equipment for the last year and a half or so, pretty much asking for nothing in return other than me going out and trying my best...Well, that super Fight at the Animal Fightwear championships, is out...Loyalty is a big thing to me and in jiu-jitsu definitely...I had to pull out of the super fight as I would have had to take pictures to be used for advertisements as well as would have had to compete in their GI in the super fight...The opportunity to be invited was an honor, but the feeling that someone believed in me enough to stick with me even though I am not all that worthy of it is much greater. I wish I had been able to work something out where they would have let me just wear a patch or something but I see where they are coming from, and more than wanting to have ceratin competitors put on a great show of Jiu-Jitsu, they wanted in addition to launch and advertise their new product...Ahh well, I guess there will be a next time...I think I have secured a spot in a Super Fight at the Texas International Grappling Festival in April..We shall see...
Well last night, I get the makings of a pain episode and really wasn't ready for it. The medicine really didn't work so I laid there all night unable to sleep, not in bad pain but very uncomfortable....I really ain't worth much today...and I don't really have much more to write jiu-jitsu-wise so for now...I fight on...


Thought For The Day: "Do not think...Feeeeeel"

.....and so it begins...

Weight: 197.6

The shoulder seems a bit better...It doesn't hurt constantly anymore, though I can feel it being a significant amount weaker than the other...Doing cardio and PT today and doing drills tonight during class I have been able to mask it by creating even more flow and movement than normal, and it's really opened up my game, so this may be a pretty good thing...We shall see....
At class tonight I got to teach some details on the triangle and then got to teach chain submissions from there as well...It felt kind of good to be able to pass on a few things I've worked on myself...Also did some competition roll training afterward....Was a small class but felt good being asked to instruct a technique while coach Allen was still in the room...Really made me feel like my skill or knowledge was...I guess....certified a tad bit...
Anyways, when I got home, I got a call from the owner of Animal Fightwear and was offered to fight in one of the 3 super fights(2 male super fights and one female) at his tournament in February...I am kind of nervous as my opponent is VERY good, and just for the fact that no matter how many tournaments I have been in, this is my first official super fight! i am sure though that it will help me get ready for the rest of my goals this year and will most certainly put my best foot forward in it! Anyways, i have to still work towards getting ready for the European Championships at the end of this month and knowing that I have to deal with my neck surgical procedure sometime next week...I sure hope I can shake that off and get some work in before i have to scale back to get ready for tournament shape...I need to work smarter as I do need some level of work refining a couple guard passes, as well as some top transitions and one particular top submission on making it more automatic and getting the correct details for when I have to force it and change it to another...Not being able to go as hard as I would without having had neck surgery, I will have to really get the most out of the least amount of training....I feel like even though I have a headache and am in pain pretty much constantly, the level of fitness and readiness has peaked a bit too soon, so I have t work on it....Plus my weight is low...All that aside, I honestly feel pretty good inside for some reason....so....I fight on.....

Thought For The Day: Work is not splitting stones. Use the least force to the greatest effect.

Tools Of The Shoulder Work

Right After The Injections

Before Teaching Class

Ditto

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Weight: 200.8

Not too talkative today...Just been mulling over some positional issues I've been having, mainly passing on top through half guard and defending butterfly sweeps...Also, have been having really screwy mental issues...Tiny breakdowns that I thought I had eliminated, but are happening at really critical times...Such as wrong hand placement on the over under crush pass that could allow a triangle or breaking posture at the precise wrong time in guard...Misplacing my weight when on top during the knee through pass or just sitting to prevent my opponent of being able to regain their leg use once I have them...Mental breaks are much worse than errors of incorrect form at times to me...Got to figure out how to keep my mind right...And definitely have to get to work on those issues...Problem is, I have to have time to play a tad bit more than i have time for as European Championships are 17 days away...i need to be focusing in on aggressive finishing style rolling while removing things from my game that I don't feel I have assimilated totally....I have to find a way to do that as well as eliminate the mental breaks and/or the reasons that cause me not to have focus in the first place somehow...Speaking of which....

Went in to the doctor today to have my shoulder worked on...Instead of the normal anesthesia, I just got a does of Versed or sumn to that effect...I may be saying it wrong...And got cortisone into four points in my shoulder to treat the "severe" tendinitis...One deep in the front, one on top under the little bone where the tendon inserts and two in back deep near the rotator cuff...It sucked ASS...Stung a little when the needle first went through the skin even though I was high as giraffe ass, but i could feel where it moved around when Doc felt around to get the medicine to the right place...:( I'd forgotten what it felt like to have that done since I was in college running track...:(:(:( Anyway, it was a weird feeling as the tendons affected most were giving me problems with the nerves that ran close to them, so the shoulder was numb, but I still had use of my hand fully...Ehh...Anyway, found out fromt he Doc as well that it needs to be another procedure as the Epidural procedure cleared up half the problem, but the problem in the disks will have to be worked on again...Perhaps this Friday if my insurance gets the pre-cert done in time...I sure hope so because I may not be able to get in next week, and he is gone the week after, so the grating feeling, and head/neck pain, along with the nerve issues associated with the C5 and C6 vertebrae will be there still...SO I figure if I get good work in tomorrow, and Thursday, and get the work done on Friday, I can let it rest for a couple days and perhaps get a few more days of good work in before I have to scale back....We will see...I'd thought i was done, but if this next procedure gets it done and the gel and meds help, then I will be good...We will see...

Oh

Tonight at class, it seems like I got a new student...That will be GREAT! My guys worked hard tonight and hopefully I am doing well by them...Need to figure out more ways to get them to ask questions and a way to have them more easily assimilate what i am teaching but, things are going well it seems...

Lot's of other things going on in life, but, it is what it is...I fight on....


Thought For The Day: Pain Is Only Temporary....No Matter How Long It Lasts.

Feeling Good Feeling Great How Are You?

Weight: 199.2

Back from my procedure....Feeling sluggish as I dunno what...But...i don't know if it is the medicine the put into my neck and epidural spaces, the gel inserted into the disks, or the anesthesia has not worn off, but the relief was pretty much immediate...And as to my last times having something similar done, it gets better as time goes on...

Thanks to Dr. Jerry Holubec, Tina -CRNA, and all the wonderful nurses and staff at the Holubec Regional Pain Care Center...If not for them (as well as Scott Colling, Marc Zuber, and James Brown with my chiropratic needs) I wouldnt be able to walk straight or function correctly...Anyone around who needs help from neck/back/arm/shoulder/foot/knee pain or anything else shouls see these guys!

This upcoming Tuesday I am to go in to get knocked out again and have my shoulder tendons and rotator cuff worked on...I hope to be much better and able to show my best at the European Championships at the end of the month!

Thanks and God Bless....I fight on...


Thought For The Day: We can rebuild him....Bigger, Better, Stronger....Faster!

Oh...and...Drugz (Versed, Propofol, and Fentanil) are grrreat! Sometimes! lol

LIVE...From The Operating Room...

COMING SOON!

Weight:199.6

Went to teach last night, and had a bit of a bad day, was tired, and a lil aggravated when I went in, but my students gave me a pick me up...I am REALLY proud of the way they are coming along. They are progressing slowly, but I can see it.(They can't I don't think...) Went through some drills and taught the cross choke from guard, the loop choke from guard, and the ankle pick take down...I need to figure out a way to get a bit more drill time in without compromising their cardio work as I am really emphasizing cardio, perseverance, and the absolute flat out basics....There is a LOT that I want to teach but I want to ensure they eliminate a lot of the tiny problems that creep into the foundation of the six basic positions and basic techniques so they don't have to later...That said, we did what I call the don't quit drill....This is where you start on your back with the person on top already flattening you out in side control and you have to survive for a period of time (There's was 2min per partner), and the only way you can get done early is to reverse AND submit your partner...No matter whether you do so or you go the whole distance, a new and fresh partner immediately jumps on you and this repeats for a set number of partners...The partner on top, his job is to maintain position, and submit you. The biggest thing about this, is it forces you (as you start out tired already having done class and cardio) to do things technically correct, not panic, and definitely to see how far you will go before you mentally quit...None of them did...They made me very proud last night...That isn't to say they did everything correct...But they got the gist, they tried hard, and they actually showed that they can attempt to work the things they learned...Even when I would be the last person in their set they still kept moving, and working...The guys I have, will definitely be able to go far if they stick with it...I just need to work to get them more mat time, and work to get some more students...3-4 per class ain't gonna cut it to help them get better...

As to the title of this post, you should have noticed by now, that you can see the lil video box at the top of this page...Well, using new technology, from different locations and events, I will be able to stream live video of what I am doing...Today, I go to get my neck surgery again...So, in addition to the pictures I normally get, I will be broadcasting live, hopefully showing things like when I get my IV in, and as much as I can do prior to me going into the operating room and going under as I can...I will ask if they'd leave the camera on while I am in surgery but I doubt it...We shall see...So if you are on between 1:15 and maybe 2:15 it will be a live stream...The program automatically archives it so if you miss it live, you will be able to see later...Wish me luck...They are doing a bit different in that it's my C5, C6, and C7 vertebrae along with my Brachial Plexus nerve bundle...So in addition to the epidural spaces and the actual disk being injected, the nerves will be worked on too...After that, on next Tuesday I have to go in and have some work done on my shoulder (Severe Tendinitis and a problem with my rotator cuff)...I know I Know...I'm falling apart...But....I fight on...


Thought For The Day: Let Go, and Let GOD!

....You Lettin' All The Stank Out!

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Weight: 201.2

Got a nice surprise from a friend this morning...He is a professional photographer who took some pictures of me at the last American National BJJ Championships...Check out his work and use his services if you get a chance...He is very good... http://www.peshphoto.com/
Also had a tad bit of good news, I may be able to have the hotel taken care of for the upcoming European Championships...This would allow me to be able to go and not have to worry about anything but having the registration fee and food/incidental money for the trip...A good thing all things considered right now...Will update as I find things out...As in the last post though, if you, reading this, know of anyone or any company who would be interested, willing, and able to sponsor or help sponsor me to get to some of the tournaments on my list this year, let me know. I do have a GI Patch Ad sponsorship package available to send out and/or deliver...
Last night was a good night at training...As usual, life problems had me really vexed and in a bad mood to the point people asked me every five minutes what was wrong with me...But, once into training, my mood and feeling improved...My good friend Ron got his purple belt last night and hope t have some pics from that to post soon...He was really emotional about it and it was a very nice moment as it reminded me why the sport means what it does to me...I got to break his belt in and had a really good night of rolling as I worked on my transitions and attacks moving before even necessary at times which allowed me to stay even further ahead of an opponent as coach Allen suggested...That got a few compliments from him at the end of the night which I am happy about...I also, worked again on my positioning from Marcus as well as set ups for attacks from him and have been doing well with this it seems...I do have a lot of work to do still though...Anyways, enjoy the pics...I fight on...


Thought For The Day: "Can you imagine what I would do if I could do all I can?"- Sun Tzu

From The Ashes...It's A Beautiful Day To Die

The Guys At The Training Session

With Rickson As A Purple Belt
Want My Jiu-Jitsu Like His

Pesadelo Kicks
Get You Some Then Go Get You Some

You Gotta Have Self Confidence!

Weight: 199.0

Well today was a day where the blessings come from disappointment...More on this later...For now, i have lot's to improve upon...I am FAR FAR FAR....MUCH farther from rolling at a Black Belt level than I ever imagined...That, is a very discouraging thought, as I felt much more competent...But, that said, at least most of my faults and weaknesses I have diagnosed and thus can work on them...I have a propensity for getting set up for the hook and flip....That said, I have become very adept at preventing being fully swept and controlled and can even mount attacks and sweeps of my own once moved, but there will be a time and opponent who will be able to finish it...That is whom I must practice for. Also my pressure from side control is not up to the standard I have for it...I am working this currently as well as working to improve my transition between guard passes in a dynamic but forceful manner...
Another thing I have been trying to do is to vary the usage of and increase the variety of submissions i use...When i watch really good practitioners of the art, the submission comes quickly, efficiently, and with strength borne of angle, timing, and leverage. I wish to become adept, at a black belt level, from every position at finishing in at least 3 ways...I think I am close to this in some ways, in others very far in that my decisiveness and ability to pull the trigger instinctively are a tick slower than necessary for what level I wish to be.(That said, one of the techniques I've been working on...the belly-down hooking arm bar...I got today without even thinking of moving to a much more favored technique when the opportunity presented itself...This one is in my toolbox!)
I am going to hone these skills and a few other holes I will close up and hopefully get to a respectable level of ability soon.
Today, I tried to organize a Black/Brown belt only training session...It seemed very promising as at least 15 people replied in the affirmative that they would be in attendance...This was being done to provide a place and time to train without having to worry about the responsibility of teaching students as well as to have people as good or better than you to roll with who are your size, smaller, and bigger...I had very high hopes for this as I figured, that despite all the politics and bullshit of the BJJ schools of the area, that this was an opportunity to help make the practitioners of the area better equipped to face that level of competition when in the bigger arenas outside TX as well as to help make a better relationship among schools here by starting at the upper belts and filtering down...Even though I had the permission of my instructor, even trying to get this set up was opposed vigorously by some, and doubted by more...i guess there was something to it, as today came and a few ended up with things to do, and many just did not show up even after saying they would. Why, I do not know, but perhaps concentrating on my own game and not being so idealistic in nature and thought would be prudent...Anyways, The only ones who ended up showing up were Carl (Black Belt), Kelly, and Johnny(Brown Belts)...This was actually a good thing and a good day though...I got to roll with guys whom I could not let my guard down with, and whom I could learn a lot from...(I especially always learn a LOT from Carl as he is a treasure trove of information and techniques and uses them with very good efficiency as well as having a good handle on showing something where you can understand it easily)...That said was also good to roll with Johnny who's skillset presents some special problems and Kelly who is heavier and stronger than I am and the same height...We rolled for about an hour and a half, had a good time and trained really hard...I am really sore and exhausted, but I did very well today in the training and got a LOT out of it...I am thinking of perhaps seeing if maybe one or two more folks from our gym will come and make it a monthly or bi-monthly thing, rather than trying to open it up and being disappointed...I don't know though...We will see...I thank the guys who came as I enjoyed today greatly even though it was initially disappointing...They are all good guys whom I look up to
Well, I have a much longer road to the beginning of my journey than I thought, and must work on much to get to start...Better eating, adding to some different areas of fitness such as grip strength, getting to my proper fighting weight, and getting the right amount of rest are all on my docket...As well, I will make certain that in my six days of training, I go out of my way to make my training as difficult as possible to maximize my gains...
The European Championships are coming up...I hope to make a good showing there...IF I end up going...I've gotten a plane ticket but finances took another downturn and without some sponsorship, no hotel, no registration etc etc which means I wouldn't be going at all...Can't go ass out in another country! I have a friend helping with putting together a sponsorship flyer and hope to hit a few stores/companies soon to present that and try to see what I can garner...Say a prayer for me in this endeavor please and if you know anyone/any company/etc who would
like to or be able to donate/sponsor me, let me know...Hell, if you want to donate/sponsor me, let me know...To reach the beginning of my journey( Faixa Preta ) these competitions and trips this year are pretty essential...So, in that vein and on that note...I fight on....


Though For The Day: It's A Beautiful Day To Die - Every day, the saurai repeats this thought upon awakening. He will do his best to see that it does not happen. But, if you are always prepared for the worst, life is made easy.