The Thrill Is Gone...I Will Love You Forever Tonight...

After Cardio/Plyo/Strength Work

I Need To Do More Of This

Damn You Evil Monkey!

Weight: 199.2

Went to work out tonight...First though watched my daughter's class...She actually bore down and had a good practice...Had very good rolls where she worked a guard pass I've shown her...and went for cross chokes and armbars of which she finished several...We still have to work on her giving up and allowing bad positions...Also need to work on keeping her finishing instinct going all the time...When she has it, she's a monster...When she doesn't she's just....There....I am very proud of her though...VERY...
On the topic of being "there"...Today was that day for me in a line of days as such...But today was just ....Extra.
Work, everyday life, money, etc all combined to just weigh a brotha down...Well I could always go in to train, gruff as can be, and about 10 minutes in, I would end up feeling a lot better as the thrill of doing what I connect with so well would take over...I'd be in another place, another time...Especially when rolling with good people, and definitely when rolling with coach, nothing can exist other than what you are doing...Sort of like when I had my motorcycle...I'd have a bad day and be down, and the mindless concentration(I came up with that term...it's copyrighted...anyone using it gets the dog piss choked out of em) necessary to stay alive while riding, would take away what I was upset about...Well tonight, no matter what I was doing, who I was rolling with, or how I went about my extra training it was as if I didn't enjoy it....I couldn't focus nor let things drop away...That hurt...
Only good to come from it, is that my control is there, my kneebars (from a couple different set ups) are coming along pretty nicely, and the things I've needed to close up as far as weaknesses seem to be getting smaller and smaller...This I know, because the things I did well, I did in spite of feeling the way I did...Even this realization didn't help though...I do know if I am to continue, I need to work on my passing a lot more diligently...Also need to work my hip movement and opponent hip control as well as my attack pacing...No-Gi specifically I need work on making my top game submissions automatic...
The body is telling me to slow down a bit...The neck is better but the nerves which are messed up in my hip and lumbar bother me even when just walking...That said, I did a reall good set of cardio/body weight/plyometric/jiu-jitsu specific exercises after my rolling tonight...Also went so far as to roll to exhaustion then rolled ten minutes more, which forced me to use straight technique to keep my advantage...to pass...to submit...All in all, my rolling cardio was better than I expected...Competing has kept me in condition...I hope to make NO-GI Pan AMs and perhaps US OPEN...Money says otherwise pretty much though....We shall see...
All that said, I hope this passes...If not, don't think that I can keep pushing myself to do it the way I am....Or perhaps not at all...For now...I fight on...

Thought For The Day: Generally speaking, the Way of the warrior is resolute acceptance of death.